~*Wow! its been like forever and a day since i've posted! lol well sum of things have changed since my last entry~

.-*Well my 4x400 team got second in state and the 7th grade girl ( 5 ppl) got 3rd place over all! 9 and we were in 7 AA!!!) ( cough*metamora*cough*) lol  ( they were in 7A)

.-*I dunno who i like.. but i guess thats the same as it was last time.. i dunno.. really confusing! lol

.-*Tomorrow i go to the state softball tourny! i dunno how we will do! ( GO FLAMES!) so i'll be gone for the weekend!

.-*I went to California w/ my dad, paige, and her dad to this camp call JH ranch! it was awesome! lol

.-*well like... and thats about it... i guess.. i dunno i dont have that interesting of a life so yea..

Till next time~

-*Linz*-

Hi guys! its been like... forever! lol well nothin really has been happening l8ly cept for track! My 4x400 team is going to state cuz we got a record of 4:29!! ( the metamora girls highskool track meet got a time of 2:21 and they're varsity!)

o well lol!

Everyone keeps asking who i like.. and i will admit i like someone..but im not giving any hints! nothin.. notta..none..no! lol

well anways i cant type this very fast cuz corey keeps tlaking to me (he's not the only one but still lol  and i dont mean that in a bad way)

well anways i have been so busy... i hate it! i want someone to have a party.... im bored... i have random thoughts ... o well..till next time!

Im on top of the world and i no im headed for a fall...

i just no im going to fail..

another heartbreak and ill b gone..

gone for good..

so dont break my heart...

please not again....

So just hold me tight...and never let go..

so when the moment is right ill tell you that i love you so...

Hey everyone! Dude... we're going to state in Volleyball! well like today we are lol... (im not to good at udating my journal) lol i hope we win cuz St. Mary's won their 1st game and are going to elite 8 in 7A...(we're 7AA)

Well to get off subject... I HATE COMPUTER! IT IS THE STUPIDEST CLASS IN THE WORLD! ugh! all she does is screams at you cuz u cant type right or u cant figure out how to work the stupid  computer! ugh! she like hates the 7th grade girls....cept for the peeps om pom poms! lolw ell i g2g! luv ya'll!

xoxox

-*Linz*-

She walks down the hallway, not noticed.

Unseen.

She hides behind her books in class,

Hoping she is not called on.

She walks home everyday, all alone.

No one calls her to play.

She stays in her room with her radio on high in order to drown out the yelling of her drunk dad.

She sees no purpose in her life.

She is invisible to all....but one.

Her nextdoor neighbor that she has known all her life.

He always seems to notice her.

He says hi to her everytime she walks by him in the hallways at school.

He is the only one who calls her on the phone.

He is the only one to notice how she feels.

He is the only one who cares.

He is the one that saved her from the lonesome world that she once lived in.

im doing nothing right now... just being bored before i have to volleyball....

Happy Valentines day

You opened my eyes.

You let me see who i am.

You were there when i needed you most.

You let me be me.

You put up with my crappy attitudes.

You put up with my dramatic entrances and my retarded lil moments.

You accept me for who i am.

I love you so much.

Youre the world's best friend.

It hurts when i see you with her.

It hurts to know theres something goin on.

It hurts to know that you used to be mine.

It hurts to know that you  were the perfect one for me.

Knowing that i was the one you let you go...

Thats what hurts the worst.

He loves me,

He loves me not.

He loves me,

He loves me not.

He loves me,

He loves me not.

HE LOVES ME!

Wow.... the flower lied... and so did he....

Hey everyone! i have been thinking of like new stuff to write and i cant think of ANYTHING! lol

o well.... im like sorta tired.. and im really worried about wednesday's volleyball game.. cause i really wanna start but i had a SUPER bad practice today

ok i have a question....

Define a friend... and then like... more than a friend... like how do you know the difference? i dunno just a thought that popped into my mind

ok well i sorta have a problem...

you see.... this friend of mine likes this guy or at thinks that she likes him...(seriously a friend of mine) (not me) lol well... you see.. she doesnt know what to do cause she is like friends w/ this guy... and well you see its sorta hard to explain... o well... lol and ive been tryin to help but i dont really no wat to do either.. so yea any ideas? 

well i have to go... i guess ill write tomorrow if i have time....

*Luv ya!*

**Linz**

I wanna cry.

I wanna cry tears of nothin.

Tears that mean nothin to me.

But if i do cry, i know i wont be crying over nothin.

I know i wont be able to control myself.

I be hurt.

I'll be in pain.

I'll be crying over you.

Im not perfect...

but i wanna think im close...

but inside something says no...

it says im no where close to perfect...

i feel incomplete at times...

at other times...

i feel like i own the world...

is it ok if im like this?

i feel fine...at times...

i just have one of those feelings that keep you up all night and you cant sleep even if you try...

you wanna cry and tell the lil voice that says "youre not perfect, cry and give up, youre not meant to be here, theres no one out there for you... youre alone" to shut up and smack the livin crap out of it...

you want reasurence that youre worth somethin...

 reasurence that youre meant to be in this world...

you want someone to be there for you...

someone that you can talk to...

someone to be youre best friend...

someone you can pour your heart out to when you need someone to listen...

someone to love you...

someone that you can love...

someone who says youre worth more than anyone can imagine...

someone that says "youre meant to be in this world because if you werent, i wouldnt know what to do"...

someone that says that "youre no where near perfect...

youre better than perfect"...

thats when you can finally sleep knowing that youre wanted out there...that youre worth something.... that youre loved... and you no that no matter what...

they are there...

Forgive me for being me.

Forgive me for being true.

Forgive me for being scared.

But dont forgive me for loving you

I know im not perfect,

but I know what I feel.

I know whats deep inside of me,

and I know whats real.

I know that i hurt you,

and i know you shouldnt forgive me,

but please just listen

and let me tell you

Im Sorrie......

I wanna hate you.

I wanna hate the way you look at me.

I wanna hate the way you smile at me.

I wanna hate how you  pretend everything is alright.

I wanna hate you.

I wanna hate the way you stare into my eyes.

I wanna hate the way i stop talking just to look at you when you pass me by.

I wanna hate you!

But...

I cant...

i love the way you look at me.

I love the way you smile at me.

I love the way you pretend everythings alright.

I love the way you stare into my eyes.

I love the way i stop talkin just to look at you when you pass me by.

There's just something about you that i love yet there is 2 things that i hate.

I hate the way you broke my heart and i hate the way that even though you broke my heart, i love you with every broken piece.......